Maybe you're a little more intelligent then most the kids at you're high school. So you didnt ignorantly fall head on into simplistic materialism, but you fell right into another trap. Then you go and fuck yourself up so much that when the time comes you will have no ability to transcend. Poetry is only disguises your feelings with flowery rhetoric. Simple aesthetics only hold you, because they attatch to some part of your subconscious self you dont truly understand. In the end you will be in the same place you started from. Its not good enough to just know how you feel. To transcend your state you have to learn. Try to learn the nature of things beyond your normal sense perception and rationale. If it were really true that the end all of philisophical inquiry was a helpless state of numbness, void of value, then many a men that have come before you would have blown there head off. Then is it you truly believe you have figured something out beyond the intelligence of some of the greatest minds to walk this earth?? What you need, is to be humbled. Realize that you do not know a goddamn thing, about a thing, about a thing. Really, you only have one life. Be ignorantly depressed if you want, it will only be in vain. Your actually somewhat interesting, work on that.
your passwords are the title to the most famous book by the father of existentialism. Theres really no meaning to that, other than the fact the book was on my mind at the time. If you can't figure that out I'm sure someone can help you.
Dont be mad at me, that would be to much emotion for someone with no pulse.
Chassy
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